I’ve come to have a love / hate relationship with the scale. This is what my scale should look like but no mine is a vintage old brown one.

I have issues that I try and work on daily surrounding self image. Which is how a picture of a scale can be about so much more.

I Have a lot of issues surrounding how I “feel” I look. I feel very overweight and not pretty most days from having health issues that caused me to be severely overweight and now I’m so scared to ever gain weight. Most days I hate my body. I’ve found that if I remind myself I don’t wear a size 22 dress anymore but a 6 that I really can’t be too overweight. It works some days.

2013 I’m determined to change this. I’ve heard the saying “Fake it until you make it” so daily I will tell myself:

You are beautiful
You are awesome
You are intelligent

I will also try my hardest daily to not say anything negative about myself. I’ve been told I’m my worst critic.

My ultimate goal is to face the scale when I’m weighed at the Doctors office. It’s weird when its there it’s more real than at home. I think because others can see it. When I have my iron infusions I have to be weighed. I’d love to not be afraid of the scale.

With some work and being kinder to me a little more daily a scale won’t play so much into how I feel and I have to believe this to be true. It’s worth the work to feel pretty and content with who I am. It’s also nice to know I’m not alone and that there are lots of people who had to work on being kinder to themselves and seeing or hearing them get through it helps me know I can too.