Anxiety oh my

It’s been weighing on my mind lately the anxiety that surrounds my monthly cycle and my IBS-c. So, when my monthly cycle comes, I can’t leave my home. I’m wait-listed, thanks to COVID, to have my uterus removed since the amount of bleeding I have monthly isn’t right. When I say I can’t leave my home, I mean that I stand in the shower throughout it because the clotting that happens isn’t to be messed with. It’s debilitating.

On top of that, I was diagnosed with IBS-c, but I was told my case is tricky since I also have IBS-d. I have no middle ground to speak of. Yes, these two lovely items in my life bring on anxiety.

Today I am to have my first facial in over a year. I also should have gotten my period by now, but it hasn’t started yet. My mind instantly goes to “What if it starts during my facial?” My mind then begins to constantly fixate on whether or not my period will start. Let’s look where my mind also goes “What if the Linzess kicks in while I’m having my facial?” You know, I’m on the table, and my stomach decides it is in control, and I need a bathroom ASAP. These situations are constantly going through my mind because the place could be any location I need to be at for any reason.

More importantly, my cycle is messed up from the IUD I briefly had to stop my periods but instead gave me a three-month-long adventure. I have a Colonoscopy scheduled for the end of the month, and what if my cycle doesn’t come and then it arrives after I have prepped for the procedure and the morning of it starts? Do I cancel? Do I pray nothing bad happens until after? I still can’t forget the horror movie in real life after my last angiogram. That was not a fun experience. More of an “OH MY GOD, will this ever stop?” and “I can’t believe they had me lay there for so many hours!” There was also the embarrassment. Let us not forget that.

I write this for the others out there who feel this same anxiety. To focus your life around a monthly period or IBS issues is complicated. When you should live your life without the worry of hormonal problems or IBS issues, but you can’t, it is hard. I’m currently working on fixing these issues, and the anxiety won’t last forever. I want others to know we can live with situations that fill us with anxiety, but it does not last forever. I will get through today and my Colonoscopy the best that I can, and if life throws me a curveball, I know I will be OK. I have had many curveballs in the past. Please know you are not alone, and I hope seeing a little of my story lets you know that.

Finally, find some support. I’ve been working with my anxiety and I have a great support group of people. I wish the same for whoever is reading this and having the same anxiety as I am. It won’t always feel this hard, it will get better.

Until next time….

The Best Gluten Free Dairy Free Peanut Butter Cookie…Ever

Feast your eyes on the recipe for the best Peanut Butter cookie EVER…OK, so my kids really enjoy it and if you have to live gluten and or dairy free then you may also think they’re the best peanut butter cookie ever and so simple to make!

Ingredients

1 Cup Natural Peanut Butter (Creamy)
1/2 Cup Granulated Sugar
1/2 Cup Lightly Packed Brown Sugar
1 Tsp Organic Vanilla Extract
1 Egg (I used the equivalent in egg whites & you can use applesauce if you don’t eat eggs)

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.

Mix all ingredients in a bowl.

Once fully combined roll into little balls and place across a cookie sheet.

Take a fork and press down the cookies to make a X on the cookies.

Bake for 10 minutes, let cool, and enjoy.

Simply the best cookie ever and next time I plan on using Carob chips.

Enjoy!!

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it’s been a while…

It’s been some time since I’ve visited my blog here. You could say I’ve been in transition. I’ve earned my AA degree in English (Yeah, Moi!) and started my university journey. Throw in a lot of fun with my PCOS issues and playing the medication game (I finally found what works) to battle my PCOS weight issues. You could say I’ve been busy. I need something for myself. I need this blog. Writing makes me feel good, and it’s time to use this blog again. I bring you today my upcoming schedule for the next week. I have so much to conquer, and I can do it, even when I feel overwhelmed. I will be posting the raw and the good of living with PCOS, FMD, and being a SCAD survivor. Don’t forget mom, employee, and full-time student. I’m ready to share my journey again with the hopes it will help someone else along the way. Oh yeah! Some good news too, I’m now a Pyatak! I domestic partnered up! Now this medically challenged lady and her type 1 diabetic guy have rights in California. Until next time…..

My schedule is pretty full. Like the photo says, “It’s only temporary!”
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