It seems one little boy may not be wanting to be held anymore to go to bed but to fall into dreamland on his own.

Great! your thinking. Bedtime will be a much easier time and less time having to hold L until he’s fallen asleep BUT it actually makes me sad.

I’m thrilled that L can self soothe himself to sleep but at the same time I enjoy being needed by him. Taking a 9 year break between kids is almost like having your first kid for the first time all over again.

I enjoy giving him kisses while he sleeps, rubbing his curls, and gently patting his behind as he drifts off.

I wonder if the sadness I’m feeling is because with the 9 year gap between kids I will no longer be having any children and so he’s the last baby I will be holding at bedtime.

With that said it is time for me to go to bed. It’s time to sleep next to L in his co-sleeper which will also end in a couple of days when L moves into his own room in our new house.

Until next time…..

– Posted on my iPhone because I don’t get quality computer time. Quality problem, yes I know.