Today began the first day of medications along with vitamins. Oh so many pills taken today. The silver lining is I am going to be feeling better. I’m so over my health restricting me from the life I want to live.
I began a different blog in 2007. The year I had gastric-bypass to help with the weight gain from PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome). The surgery worked! I lost all the weight and then some and I got regular cycles and even conceived my second child without any issues but that didn’t mean the PCOS was gone.
In 2016 I suffered a SCAD Heart Attack after a very rough part of my life. The darkest part of my life for that matter. Though my heart attack had nothing to do with a typical heart attack and I was sent home at the beginning of my heart attack because “I didn’t look like someone having a heart attack” being thin and in pretty good health and it took me going back for them to take me seriously I was still put on medications for high blood pressure since I was then diagnosed with Fibromuscular Dysplasia and Micro Cardiovascular Disease. Both affect the arteries and cause me to be at high risk for another heart attack or stroke.
From the use of these medications, I gained 60 pounds. As someone with body dysmorphia from the rapid weight gain and loss, this is hard on me. Why? People are cruel to overweight people and ASSUME that they overeat and don’t exercise and don’t care for themselves. This is 100% not always true. There are many health conditions that cause weight gain. PCOS being one of them and my PCOS is also in full swing again and I am also not absorbing nutrients. From all of this, I’ve tried to exercise and do things correctly based on my medical history but have not been able to since my body is out of whack.
I finally gave up doing this all alone and met with my primary care physician who then had me getting iron infusions, meeting with my cardiologist, and meeting with my new neurologist. Between all of my doctors, I am on new medications and a ton of supplements (photo and daily schedule below) that will help me feel human again and help my body to lose weight. My primary also let me know my body has gone into shock and when it does this a body will hold onto weight. I am willing to do as instructed so that I can get back a part of me I lost with my heart attack. I was active and felt good. Right now I don’t feel so good. My hope is that by doing as instructed by my medical team that over time my body will get back to a good place.
I want to be an example, as I was before that we can recover. It is not always easy, the path to healing but I know, as I have done it before, it can be done. To keep me accountable I will be utilizing the blog that I pay for and ignore. When I blogged my journey before I wrote on the struggles and the triumphs. I posted gluten and dairy-free recipes. I was living life and my blog turned into something different than it started as. My hope, as I continue to heal and really take care of my medical needs that I can get my blog there. I hope that seeing my journey can help others with PCOS or SCAD Survivors see it can get better. It isn’t a quick process and I need to remember that too. I am ready to see where this journey takes me and I’m grateful to have you along.
Day 9 was rough.
The boy made it through his online class with his teacher and classmates but it went downhill from there and I didn’t have it in me to argue with him. First day of my aunt flow visiting also seemed to come yesterday which means my heart & body get out of whack. Low heart rate isn’t good for anyone.
I made it through work and school work. Little victories. This doesn’t mean I don’t take my sons education seriously. It means that we did other things yesterday. It also doesn’t mean it was easy for me to get work and school work done. It took me until 8:30 pm to finish 3 hours of my work, for my employer and it took until about 10 pm to finish my school work. My little victories happened at the end of the day and many naps did happen. My body just needed it.
We did do other things as I said, you know between naps and work. While the girl was entertaining the new guinea pigs that moved in next door with the hot neighbor (my boyfriend) the boy and I did water play in the backyard and I cleaned my succulent area. We spent some good time outdoors laughing and having fun. Sometimes, you just need to have fun. With not being able to get out right now it’s nice to get creative outside. We even ended the day with another walk around the block.
We had dinner for breakfast and enjoyed it outside in the backyard with a nice fire. Smores were even made and planning a prank on the bonus daughters dad (the boyfriend) began. I mean the boy got me a day early for April Fools. He was a little evil genius and had the TV look like it was cracked and made a sound to have me think so and when I looked I was freaking out until he instantly laughed, but he got me, that boy got me good.
It was rough I say because I wasn’t feeling good. Again, I’m sure I’m not the only woman, when her monthly cycle comes feels off BUT again, for me it really does play a part in my day. I don’t like feeling lethargic and off. I don’t like my heart rate getting low. My body, since my heart attack really does get wonky at times. Like anything else though…This too shall pass and I will feel good again.
Enjoy some pictures below of the good from the day. There’s always good. Until tomorrow be good to you…