The boy made it through his online class with his teacher and classmates but it went downhill from there and I didn’t have it in me to argue with him. First day of my aunt flow visiting also seemed to come yesterday which means my heart & body get out of whack. Low heart rate isn’t good for anyone.
I made it through work and school work. Little victories. This doesn’t mean I don’t take my sons education seriously. It means that we did other things yesterday. It also doesn’t mean it was easy for me to get work and school work done. It took me until 8:30 pm to finish 3 hours of my work, for my employer and it took until about 10 pm to finish my school work. My little victories happened at the end of the day and many naps did happen. My body just needed it.
We did do other things as I said, you know between naps and work. While the girl was entertaining the new guinea pigs that moved in next door with the hot neighbor (my boyfriend) the boy and I did water play in the backyard and I cleaned my succulent area. We spent some good time outdoors laughing and having fun. Sometimes, you just need to have fun. With not being able to get out right now it’s nice to get creative outside. We even ended the day with another walk around the block.
We had dinner for breakfast and enjoyed it outside in the backyard with a nice fire. Smores were even made and planning a prank on the bonus daughters dad (the boyfriend) began. I mean the boy got me a day early for April Fools. He was a little evil genius and had the TV look like it was cracked and made a sound to have me think so and when I looked I was freaking out until he instantly laughed, but he got me, that boy got me good.
It was rough I say because I wasn’t feeling good. Again, I’m sure I’m not the only woman, when her monthly cycle comes feels off BUT again, for me it really does play a part in my day. I don’t like feeling lethargic and off. I don’t like my heart rate getting low. My body, since my heart attack really does get wonky at times. Like anything else though…This too shall pass and I will feel good again.
Enjoy some pictures below of the good from the day. There’s always good. Until tomorrow be good to you…
For my 44th year I’m giving to me a ton of inside work. I’m no longer on any heart meds and my heart healed itself. My arteries well, my heart is a start. I’m seeing a doctor today to better me physically. I’m working on my PCOS because I refuse to let it take me over. I’m working on my self worth and will lose my heart attack weight gain. With PCOS this is hard for me.
I realized I’ve worked hard or overdid things in the past because I thought if I did I would be worthy of love or friendship but that’s not true. I’m worthy no matter what and I need to believe that.
The photo below of those amazing women was taken at my 40th birthday party and right before the darkest time of my life. Those women are still in my life and helped me through that dark time and we give to each other when we need someone and I love them and the many other women in my life.
Here is to 44 and the many adventures and growth and love and happiness and sadness and hope that it will bring.