Kats Living Adventure…Indeed

Where do I begin? Let’s start with yesterday I made it to 21 years sober. That’s literally half my life. Through my sobriety I’ve been through a ton of good and a ton of bad and right now life is in session.

I’ve so not been good with keeping up with my blog and you know I’m not beating myself up. I have found what I’ll be using my blog for. My blog that used to be filled with PCOS info, gluten and dairy free yummy goodness and life as I knew it will now be a whirlwind of….

  • Living with PCOS
  • Living with heart disease
  • Struggling as a single mom in school full time so I can better myself and show my kids you can start over.
  • Co-Parenting
  • New relationship adventures
  • Life as I know it with some fun and growing pains

Right now I’m so struggling. Half the time I want to give up. I get sad that I lost me and that my kids have so much with my ex and he’s a good dad to them but I feel cheated.

My weight is a HUGE issue for me right now as well. Living barely week to week I can’t afford the way I need to eat and it’s hard because with PCOS I’m supposed to eat gluten and dairy free and when my kids are with me I need to cook for them. I never want to be fat again. I would rather die. Sad fact but true. I remember how I was treated and looked down upon and I won’t go back to living like that. Tonight I bought myself healthy food and though it will cost more I have to eat right for my health and especially since my soon to be 18 year old was also diagnosed with PCOS.

Good news is I’m in school. It’s so different not attending in over 20 years but it makes me feel good about me and this fall I’ll be taking ballet again. Silver lining for when I feel low about myself.

The man I met, it’s been almost two years of us being together. He’s good to me but I worry I’m not good enough. I felt that way in my last relationship as well. This may just be a me, self esteem issue. Alanon is my friend still.

This was a mess of a post but it’s a start.

Daily or often I want to chronicle what it’s really like starting over. The good and bad of it all. One moment and sometimes one heart beat at a time.

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Polenta Pizza Bites

LOVED these Polenta Pizza Bites I made last night.  With summer here it’s hot out and who really wants to do a lot of prep work in the kitchen.  This was easy to do and I loved it!

Ingredients

Polenta Roll (Trader Joes)

Organic Pizza Sauce

Grilled Chicken (diced into small pieces)

Mozzarella Cheese

Cooking The Pizzas

Heat oven to 400 degrees before starting the prep work

Arrange pizza bites on a baking sheet.  Less is more when it comes to the pizza sauce.  It doesn’t need to be drowned to still taste good.

Bake for 15 minutes or until the cheese is browned on top

Let cool and enjoy!!

  

Exercise & PCOS

I’ve never been a huge fan of exercise. However; I’ve found those 30 Day Challenges to be a lot of fun because it’s a 30 Day commitment and that’s all.

I posted once on Facebook that I was doing a plank challenge and I had over 10 friends ask to do it with me. This has led to other challenges.

Currently it’s a squat challenge & upper body challenge. Loved a quote I saw

“Squats, because no one ever wrote a song about small butts.”

and…that’s why the squat challenge came about.

I’ve also gotten into jogging again. I fell some time ago and have a fear of falling again since I usually go at 5am but I’m getting over that fear too. I even started the Couch to 5k again to get me comfortable.

With PCOS it’s so discouraging a lot of the time because I can work out and work out and the weight just sticks around. Still, if I keep up with the exercise I feel good about me. Exercise and cutting both gluten & dairy out really do help keep the weight off.

I feel bad for all of us with PCOS it’s a very individual condition. What works for some doesn’t work for others but believe me when I say how much better I feel completing a challenge or finishing a day of jogging.

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Couch to 5k Day 2 Complete

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Even little cheat sheets to get a small workout in help.