Did you know life and life’s ups and downs don’t stop because of a pandemic? True story. Yesterday and today I feel really sad. Letting go of what I thought would happen one day is hard. I cry when I think about it. Between that another situation I’ve said I’d let go I don’t know if my relationship will last for the long run. That’s being honest. Do I want to feel this when that person is someone I’m isolated with? No. The first letting go over time I can do but the second I’m not so sure. Time will tell and this sadness will pass. This is a total growth moment and ya know what? At least I’m forced to feel and work through it because I can’t run from my feelings by over doing it right now.
Yesterday I also took my final walk of the week with the boy. We took a walk each day he was with me. So nice to get out with no one else walking around and spend some time getting a bit of exercise in and the boy being able to scooter. Win/Win for us both. See some good too.
I notice lately I’ve been down more than up with my posts but come on, this isn’t a feel good time in history and this isn’t just hitting the United States. This is a worldwide pandemic and it’s sad. Just so sad. It will get better. That’s the silver lining.
My schedule for the week is ready, I’m focused on bettering me and it’s my alone week. I wonder the good that can happen. Let’s see. Until tomorrow.
I’ve figured it’s easier to blog first thing in the morning. I’m a morning person. You may be too but I totally space by evening. Here’s the low down into yesterday in a day in the life of homeschooling, working, and being a student in a time of Covid-19.
Schools back in session for me. All my classes are online now so that means not only am I getting my school work done but I’m working my normal job, remotely from home and I’m playing teacher to a 4th grader. My schedule this week is crazy (photo of weekly schedule below).
My 4th grader has issues learning. He is not the only child right now in the United States, doing school at home, with a learning disability. However, he’s my child and it gets to me to see him struggle. By 10:00 am he was in tears overwhelmed doing a school Hot Chili session with his teacher and classmates. He should not be in tears at 10:00 am. We did get our first school session done with no issues. Success. Our second school session didn’t go as planned but guess what? We ended up getting some fresh air and taking a walk around the block twice. He used his scooter, got out some energy, and came home a happier child. Winning!
Work for me is harder when the kids are with me. Working into my schedule and having to work around my sons schedule means I need to stay right on track. Again, not the only American or person in the world going through this but again, it’s new to me and affecting me. Add in getting my school work done I feel so overwhelmed at times during the day and yesterday was only Monday.
Self care is another thing in a time of Covid-19. I notice because I’m sooo busy that I just eat whatever and my workouts suffer. I’m working hard daily to not let this happen. My body dysmorphia doesn’t stop when there’s a pandemic happening. Today I start over. We can always start over. Today I will practice pausing to make sure I stay on track for myself.
Today’s a new day. I’m going to just try and get all my important stuff done early in the morning since I’m a morning person. Here’s to a new day, in our new normal, during a time of Covid-19.
I took the weekend off. What’s happening all over the world is really starting to get to me. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been disturbed but I’m a go go go person and having to stay home is so hard. I don’t think some people will get what I’m feeling and I think others will 100% get what I’m feeling.
I took the weekend off to just be. To try and enjoy being indoors. You know, I did.
My hot neighbor (boyfriend) and I watched: Jojo Rabbit, Case 39, The Big Wedding, 3 Men & a Baby, FoxFire, Big Time Adolescence, and of course the #1 viewed thing on Netflix Tiger King (horribly bad it’s so good). It felt good to just be in the moment and binge watch movies we hadn’t seen or re-watched movies from the 80’s and 90’s.
We took a 1.5 mile walk later in the evening on Saturday night. It was nice to get out, with no one else out and enjoy the fresh air. Things we take for granted usually mean so much when you’re stuck indoors all day long.
We barbecued yesterday. We made chicken and asparagus. It reminded me of our times at the cabin. I miss the cabin. I can’t wait to be back there. What is odd is that when we go to the cabin, outside of going to have breakfast in the Lake Arrowhead village we stay in and do nothing. Actually, we get creative and watch movies on VHS. I can’t wait to be back up there.
I think we can all, those of us who don’t know how to slow down, can use this time to slow down. I’m going to try and take my weekends to do that.
This week I have my kids. This week I made a schedule for my son and I between me working and doing my school work to making sure that he is doing his school work we are going to be busy this week. I will update daily, I won’t promise each day will go smoothly and I may need to pause a lot but this is really helping to get my thoughts out. Until tonight….