Day 18 in a time of Covid-19…

Did you know I have a rare condition? I do, it’s called FMD or Fibromuscular Dysplasia which is progressive twisting of the blood vessels throughout the body. Mine happen to be in my neck and other places that caused me to have a SCAD (Sudden Coronary Artery Dissection), which caused a heart attack. I’ve been doing good for a while BUT now I’m having migraines, ringing in my ears (you know like after you leave a loud concert), and angina in my upper back. I’m back on Nifedipine to help but in a way I think it’s making it worse. So, I’m doing what I need to in order to feel good. I need to rest more and practice calm. I need to make sure I’m putting good into my body. I need to exercise and not tweak my neck, oh there’s so much to do but I’m into living for the long hall so I’m doing it.

Because it’s been a struggle health-wise I have noticed two good things that have been a constant since I started blogging daily in a time of Covid-19…(1) I do my daily gratitude list before anything else each day and (2) I blog. I’ve made both these things in my day a priority so I will be adding my daily work out and meditation. Need to do these things. I also need to make sure I track my food so I’m eating good. I love to cook, I don’t like being lazy these days because I’m zonked from sitting at my dining room table most of the day.

Yesterday was another success! Work went well and I began to grasp math concepts that I didn’t think I ever would grasp. I also got to enjoy the sound of so much rain! Today is Friday and I’m looking forward to what this day brings. Sometimes in a time of Covid-19 we get to be reminded how precious we are and if we (I) am staying isolated to keep well I need to take care of conditions that already exist as well.

Here’s to another good day in a time of Covid-19. Until tomorrow.

Flash Back Friday to the Festival of Books that isn’t happening this year BUT if you took a moment and thought about someone you loved, how many people are you staying isolated for? Take a moment today and think of those you love.

Day 16 in a time of Covid-19…

Well, I lost April 7, 2020 due to the epic migraine of the decade. My goodness. Nausea and all. It was brutal but today, with a migraine hangover I’m back.

A lot’s happened since my last doom and gloom post. I feel better about my relationship, I feel focused, and I know these times are uncertain, we are going through a pandemic.

So, little secret…I used to write and put all of me in my writing. I miss that. I’m starting on a article based on what was bugging me about my relationship. I think for some of us we have these thoughts about how our lives should pan out and if it detours then it can be a shock. However, I’m with a man who truly loves me for me and I need to look at why marriage was/is so important to me. I mean my ex husband gas-lighted me into a heart attack and then cyber stalked me into deleting my last blog and not feeling safe about posting anything online. I mean I also come from broken home so my examples of marriage aren’t good in the first place. I can’t wait to continue this journey and to look into the stigma of marriage. I mean research a little and you will see marriage didn’t start with love, it was a union to join families. More will be revealed.

I’ve also found that I’m way too hard on me even as we are all on lock-down. I need to remember not only am I an extrovert but the world is filled with us. There are a ton of us that need to be out there living life. Now, my outside life, work, school, etc. is all online. It takes more discipline to sit at my dining room table and do everything. It’s OK to get up and pace the house, it’s OK to take a walk (keeping social distance and wearing a mask) around the block, and it’s OK to have moments of not being OK.

Yesterday was lost to my head pain but today is a new day and I’m going to make the most of it. It’s also the first night of Passover so I will be joining my other half and his children and ex-wife for dinner. We’ve all been around each other so we are safe to dine together. Times are going to be much different for a while but it’s only temporary. Life does ebb and flow and each day is worth a new start…even in a time of Covid-19. Until tomorrow.

Day 14 in a time of Covid-19…

Did you know life and life’s ups and downs don’t stop because of a pandemic? True story. Yesterday and today I feel really sad. Letting go of what I thought would happen one day is hard. I cry when I think about it. Between that another situation I’ve said I’d let go I don’t know if my relationship will last for the long run. That’s being honest. Do I want to feel this when that person is someone I’m isolated with? No. The first letting go over time I can do but the second I’m not so sure. Time will tell and this sadness will pass. This is a total growth moment and ya know what? At least I’m forced to feel and work through it because I can’t run from my feelings by over doing it right now.

Yesterday I also took my final walk of the week with the boy. We took a walk each day he was with me. So nice to get out with no one else walking around and spend some time getting a bit of exercise in and the boy being able to scooter. Win/Win for us both. See some good too.

I notice lately I’ve been down more than up with my posts but come on, this isn’t a feel good time in history and this isn’t just hitting the United States. This is a worldwide pandemic and it’s sad. Just so sad. It will get better. That’s the silver lining.

My schedule for the week is ready, I’m focused on bettering me and it’s my alone week. I wonder the good that can happen. Let’s see. Until tomorrow.

Do you see the beautiful white butterfly we saw on our walk? Beauty in a time of Covid-19