Sometimes we need time with our closest friends. We need to sip coffee, eat breakfast, and chat. The feeling of calm can fill our souls. I’m grateful for this morning with one of those women in my life. I enjoyed a walk first and then met up with her for some one-on-one talk. Perfect morning. Here’s to finding the beauty in each day.
Yesterday I was SOOO productive at work. It felt good to get all my hours in and feel like I got a lot done. I’m hoping for more of the same today.
The first night of Passover was yesterday. I was dated/married a Jewish man who I was with for about 20 years. I’m culturally Jewish and more Jewish than some who are Jewish it seems. Still, I was invited last night to join my Jewish, non-practicing boyfriend and his children and ex-wife for a Seder at his ex-wife’s home. The theme of today’s blog entry is I’m so uncomfortable when I’m just me and them. At the end of dinner his ex asked that we do a family selfie which I felt really uncomfortable doing. In some ways I’m their children’s bonus mom but it’s a little weird for me still. However, the dinner was nice and even a Hamilton the musical Haggadah was used and a couple of songs sung. Not too shabby. All in all it was a nice evening.
Yesterday was a good day. Through this uncertain time it’s nice when good happens. Until tomorrow.
Did you know life and life’s ups and downs don’t stop because of a pandemic? True story. Yesterday and today I feel really sad. Letting go of what I thought would happen one day is hard. I cry when I think about it. Between that another situation I’ve said I’d let go I don’t know if my relationship will last for the long run. That’s being honest. Do I want to feel this when that person is someone I’m isolated with? No. The first letting go over time I can do but the second I’m not so sure. Time will tell and this sadness will pass. This is a total growth moment and ya know what? At least I’m forced to feel and work through it because I can’t run from my feelings by over doing it right now.
Yesterday I also took my final walk of the week with the boy. We took a walk each day he was with me. So nice to get out with no one else walking around and spend some time getting a bit of exercise in and the boy being able to scooter. Win/Win for us both. See some good too.
I notice lately I’ve been down more than up with my posts but come on, this isn’t a feel good time in history and this isn’t just hitting the United States. This is a worldwide pandemic and it’s sad. Just so sad. It will get better. That’s the silver lining.
My schedule for the week is ready, I’m focused on bettering me and it’s my alone week. I wonder the good that can happen. Let’s see. Until tomorrow.