Did you know life and life’s ups and downs don’t stop because of a pandemic? True story. Yesterday and today I feel really sad. Letting go of what I thought would happen one day is hard. I cry when I think about it. Between that another situation I’ve said I’d let go I don’t know if my relationship will last for the long run. That’s being honest. Do I want to feel this when that person is someone I’m isolated with? No. The first letting go over time I can do but the second I’m not so sure. Time will tell and this sadness will pass. This is a total growth moment and ya know what? At least I’m forced to feel and work through it because I can’t run from my feelings by over doing it right now.
Yesterday I also took my final walk of the week with the boy. We took a walk each day he was with me. So nice to get out with no one else walking around and spend some time getting a bit of exercise in and the boy being able to scooter. Win/Win for us both. See some good too.
I notice lately I’ve been down more than up with my posts but come on, this isn’t a feel good time in history and this isn’t just hitting the United States. This is a worldwide pandemic and it’s sad. Just so sad. It will get better. That’s the silver lining.
My schedule for the week is ready, I’m focused on bettering me and it’s my alone week. I wonder the good that can happen. Let’s see. Until tomorrow.
The boy made it through his online class with his teacher and classmates but it went downhill from there and I didn’t have it in me to argue with him. First day of my aunt flow visiting also seemed to come yesterday which means my heart & body get out of whack. Low heart rate isn’t good for anyone.
I made it through work and school work. Little victories. This doesn’t mean I don’t take my sons education seriously. It means that we did other things yesterday. It also doesn’t mean it was easy for me to get work and school work done. It took me until 8:30 pm to finish 3 hours of my work, for my employer and it took until about 10 pm to finish my school work. My little victories happened at the end of the day and many naps did happen. My body just needed it.
We did do other things as I said, you know between naps and work. While the girl was entertaining the new guinea pigs that moved in next door with the hot neighbor (my boyfriend) the boy and I did water play in the backyard and I cleaned my succulent area. We spent some good time outdoors laughing and having fun. Sometimes, you just need to have fun. With not being able to get out right now it’s nice to get creative outside. We even ended the day with another walk around the block.
We had dinner for breakfast and enjoyed it outside in the backyard with a nice fire. Smores were even made and planning a prank on the bonus daughters dad (the boyfriend) began. I mean the boy got me a day early for April Fools. He was a little evil genius and had the TV look like it was cracked and made a sound to have me think so and when I looked I was freaking out until he instantly laughed, but he got me, that boy got me good.
It was rough I say because I wasn’t feeling good. Again, I’m sure I’m not the only woman, when her monthly cycle comes feels off BUT again, for me it really does play a part in my day. I don’t like feeling lethargic and off. I don’t like my heart rate getting low. My body, since my heart attack really does get wonky at times. Like anything else though…This too shall pass and I will feel good again.
Enjoy some pictures below of the good from the day. There’s always good. Until tomorrow be good to you…