So, a couple of days have past but it seems to be a trend that my weekends are about just being in the moment and not doing anything except it was a busy weekend…even from home.
This weekend I….
Learned how to make masks and saw that my boyfriends really old shirts he wanted to turn into masks won’t work. You need somewhat thick fabric. He’s an artist though and has a vision and I’m not so we will see how our mask ends up. I think we are going to be one and done! Did you know you can make art out of the masks? It seems instead of making them we will be painting them. Stay tuned for images once we are done.
Baked and cooked. I even made strawberry butter (photo below) for Easter, cooked a brisket in the crock pot (yum) and made my world famous green bean casserole for my little 19 year old daughter. I love that with each family holiday she looks forward to having it and enjoys it.
Brought a meal to my elderly neighbor. Can’t wait to meet her after this is all over. Due to a mail mix up I’ve made a new friend.
Hid a ton of plastic eggs, twice. PE for minors…check!
Relaxed with my little’s and watched classic Disney films. Disney is pretty dark if you think about it.
OMG I stayed in bed on Saturday until 2:30 pm and I felt lazy but it’s something I NEVER do! So nice to give in to the uncomfortable.
In all the weekend was excellent.
Yesterday we began school again for all after Spring Break and it’s so hard to work and juggle the boys school schedule. Today is a new day and we try again. I have this! One moment at a time we will figure out what works.
I also realized how little money I have left. I already live paycheck to paycheck but this is hard since my side hustle job ended with the death of a great CPA to a shitty disease in February right before all this happened. I’m living on less but I’m doing it and I’m remembering that I am in school (even during this) to better myself.
Here’s to another day, indoors, living life during this pandemic. Superstar, each of us for getting through each day!
Did you know life and life’s ups and downs don’t stop because of a pandemic? True story. Yesterday and today I feel really sad. Letting go of what I thought would happen one day is hard. I cry when I think about it. Between that another situation I’ve said I’d let go I don’t know if my relationship will last for the long run. That’s being honest. Do I want to feel this when that person is someone I’m isolated with? No. The first letting go over time I can do but the second I’m not so sure. Time will tell and this sadness will pass. This is a total growth moment and ya know what? At least I’m forced to feel and work through it because I can’t run from my feelings by over doing it right now.
Yesterday I also took my final walk of the week with the boy. We took a walk each day he was with me. So nice to get out with no one else walking around and spend some time getting a bit of exercise in and the boy being able to scooter. Win/Win for us both. See some good too.
I notice lately I’ve been down more than up with my posts but come on, this isn’t a feel good time in history and this isn’t just hitting the United States. This is a worldwide pandemic and it’s sad. Just so sad. It will get better. That’s the silver lining.
My schedule for the week is ready, I’m focused on bettering me and it’s my alone week. I wonder the good that can happen. Let’s see. Until tomorrow.
Sometimes it will take a pandemic to show us what’s really happening in our lives or where we need to be. Coming to this realization though can feel bad but can be filled, with hopefully so much growth. I will be doing a lot of work on me this upcoming week. I’ve found out some things that show me I need to do more work. More will be revealed.
I’m grateful like yesterday and today my kids don’t need to see how I’m feeling. I’m present for them and that’s what matters for the two of them. They go back to their fathers tonight so I can have a night to be sad if I choose to.
I’ve done good though being good to my body with food. Still no gluten. Still eating healthy. Just for today. So today I leave you with a photo of my yummy and healthy egg frittata with avocados from a friends tree that finally ripened. Until tomorrow.