Day 5…

Today I helped my brother by chance to pack up a bit more. To help him as he closes a chapter in his life as he leaves a home, he shared with his wife. A wife took too soon. I’m grateful for her to have put him in my life. Due to my relationship with his wife over time, we had to work together, and since her passing, I’ve gone from considering him a friend and to now, a brother. Life is funny that way. I’m just glad my kids and I were able to be there for him today. It’s the little things that matter most.

Until tomorrow.

Chris & Joni in better times while visiting Paris.

Day 4…

Sometimes we need time with our closest friends. We need to sip coffee, eat breakfast, and chat. The feeling of calm can fill our souls. I’m grateful for this morning with one of those women in my life. I enjoyed a walk first and then met up with her for some one-on-one talk. Perfect morning. Here’s to finding the beauty in each day.

Until tomorrow…..

Day 29 – This is 44

For my 44th year I’m giving to me a ton of inside work. I’m no longer on any heart meds and my heart healed itself. My arteries well, my heart is a start. I’m seeing a doctor today to better me physically. I’m working on my PCOS because I refuse to let it take me over. I’m working on my self worth and will lose my heart attack weight gain. With PCOS this is hard for me.

I realized I’ve worked hard or overdid things in the past because I thought if I did I would be worthy of love or friendship but that’s not true. I’m worthy no matter what and I need to believe that.

The photo below of those amazing women was taken at my 40th birthday party and right before the darkest time of my life. Those women are still in my life and helped me through that dark time and we give to each other when we need someone and I love them and the many other women in my life.

Here is to 44 and the many adventures and growth and love and happiness and sadness and hope that it will bring.

Some of the women who loved me when I couldn’t.

Facts