My goodness, yesterday focused around the fact that I ate so poorly. Gluten is NEVER my friend but I couldn’t stop yesterday. I am still trying to figure it out. I really hated how it made me feel but I couldn’t stop. I feel so out of control internally right now. Like I don’t know which way is up. I know it’s day two of my monthly cycle but yesterday I just felt so powerless. Like anything and days before I do have a new day today. It’s the first time in my 44 years around the world that I thought “am I emotionally eating?”. I know I was lazy yesterday too. I made it into the office to switch out work but I fought to get my 5 hours in. Here’s to a new day…
I skipped my workout yesterday which means two today. I’m OK with that. One thing I noticed yesterday is that I’ve been keeping to my 5 days a week (ok really 5 workouts a week). I’ve been doing 5 workouts a week for 4 weeks now. That my friends is progress and even though I sucked on the food front yesterday I can say I am doing something good for me. I think, especially right now when being told to shelter in place that exercise is good for the soul. It’s at least keeping me going.
The boy skipped school yesterday, you know keeping in with my day. Ha! Seriously though, today he has a day of school to complete and tomorrow. Since I’m the teacher right now I gave him the day off. We also found out yesterday that the state of California is closing schools until the end of the school year (maybe this was my trigger for poor eating yesterday?). This overwhelmed this homeschooling mom because I, myself am a full time college student and I’m a employee as well. It’s hard enough trying to get the boy to stay focused but I have to arrange so much into my/our day. Today, not only is it packed with 4th grade fun but I also have school work to complete, a lot of it and 4-6 hours of work too.
Yesterday was hard and I’m not the only one having a hard time. My hope by blogging daily is to show others they are not alone. We are all struggling with this new normal. My silver lining for yesterday was my rent for April was paid. I’m grateful I was able to pay my rent when so many are not. I’m grateful I have my job still when so many are out of work. In this time of Covid-19 we need to remember the little things and even though I didn’t feel good about yesterday I did have some good. I did end the day watching Onward with my two kids. I ended my day surrounded by loved ones and I’m grateful we are all safe and I’m so sorry for all those who’ve lost people.
The boy made it through his online class with his teacher and classmates but it went downhill from there and I didn’t have it in me to argue with him. First day of my aunt flow visiting also seemed to come yesterday which means my heart & body get out of whack. Low heart rate isn’t good for anyone.
I made it through work and school work. Little victories. This doesn’t mean I don’t take my sons education seriously. It means that we did other things yesterday. It also doesn’t mean it was easy for me to get work and school work done. It took me until 8:30 pm to finish 3 hours of my work, for my employer and it took until about 10 pm to finish my school work. My little victories happened at the end of the day and many naps did happen. My body just needed it.
We did do other things as I said, you know between naps and work. While the girl was entertaining the new guinea pigs that moved in next door with the hot neighbor (my boyfriend) the boy and I did water play in the backyard and I cleaned my succulent area. We spent some good time outdoors laughing and having fun. Sometimes, you just need to have fun. With not being able to get out right now it’s nice to get creative outside. We even ended the day with another walk around the block.
We had dinner for breakfast and enjoyed it outside in the backyard with a nice fire. Smores were even made and planning a prank on the bonus daughters dad (the boyfriend) began. I mean the boy got me a day early for April Fools. He was a little evil genius and had the TV look like it was cracked and made a sound to have me think so and when I looked I was freaking out until he instantly laughed, but he got me, that boy got me good.
It was rough I say because I wasn’t feeling good. Again, I’m sure I’m not the only woman, when her monthly cycle comes feels off BUT again, for me it really does play a part in my day. I don’t like feeling lethargic and off. I don’t like my heart rate getting low. My body, since my heart attack really does get wonky at times. Like anything else though…This too shall pass and I will feel good again.
Enjoy some pictures below of the good from the day. There’s always good. Until tomorrow be good to you…
I’ve figured it’s easier to blog first thing in the morning. I’m a morning person. You may be too but I totally space by evening. Here’s the low down into yesterday in a day in the life of homeschooling, working, and being a student in a time of Covid-19.
Schools back in session for me. All my classes are online now so that means not only am I getting my school work done but I’m working my normal job, remotely from home and I’m playing teacher to a 4th grader. My schedule this week is crazy (photo of weekly schedule below).
My 4th grader has issues learning. He is not the only child right now in the United States, doing school at home, with a learning disability. However, he’s my child and it gets to me to see him struggle. By 10:00 am he was in tears overwhelmed doing a school Hot Chili session with his teacher and classmates. He should not be in tears at 10:00 am. We did get our first school session done with no issues. Success. Our second school session didn’t go as planned but guess what? We ended up getting some fresh air and taking a walk around the block twice. He used his scooter, got out some energy, and came home a happier child. Winning!
Work for me is harder when the kids are with me. Working into my schedule and having to work around my sons schedule means I need to stay right on track. Again, not the only American or person in the world going through this but again, it’s new to me and affecting me. Add in getting my school work done I feel so overwhelmed at times during the day and yesterday was only Monday.
Self care is another thing in a time of Covid-19. I notice because I’m sooo busy that I just eat whatever and my workouts suffer. I’m working hard daily to not let this happen. My body dysmorphia doesn’t stop when there’s a pandemic happening. Today I start over. We can always start over. Today I will practice pausing to make sure I stay on track for myself.
Today’s a new day. I’m going to just try and get all my important stuff done early in the morning since I’m a morning person. Here’s to a new day, in our new normal, during a time of Covid-19.