Limbo…

It’s been a while since I’ve updated but it’s because I’m in limbo.  I was doing so well, I thought and eating right (still am) but I’m not losing weight.  Could be PCOS, could be I’m over 40, could be that I’m so out of shape.  It could be a lot of things but it makes for me to feel so discouraged.  So, I’m upping my out of shape game and going to focus on adding in exercise more.  Previously, I didn’t need to do this.  I ran, sure but I was able to just eat right and keep the weight off.  I’m 43 now so maybe my bodies changed and possibly the medications I’m on for my artery conditions are playing a part.  My sugars keeping going low as well, even after I eat.

My silver lining is that I’ve seen my doctor, brought him a list of questions and he told me he was sorry I wasn’t losing weight.  I know the logical things that can be happening but having PCOS and two rare artery conditions it’s nice to sometimes hear “I’m sorry”.

He’s running a bunch of tests.  My body dysmorphia is making it really hard for me to feel like I’m never going to get back down to my pre-heart attack weight.  I can’t and won’t be overweight like I was in the early years of PCOS.  Unless you’ve been through what I have you wouldn’t understand.  I’ve learned as well maybe certain people are the only ones to discuss these things with.  Even people, friends and family who care about you may not understand and it makes it hard.

I’ve found too that when I feel this way I want to eat bad.  For me eating bad is eating gluten or dairy.  I don’t overeat and people notice that but I feel eating the way I’ve been told not to is eating bad.

So my update is I’m a mess, I’m in limbo.  I won’t always be.  I will grow and I will update this blog more.  You never know, one of you may be feeling as I do and seeing me not give up could help.

Water oh Water oh My…

It hit me today on my quest to a healthy PCOS and rare disease lifestyle that I’m not drinking enough water.  I used to drink a ton of it but now, since my heart attack in 2016 I seem to enjoy Diet Coke and Coffee as drinks of choice for me. Before you worry, my blood pressure from the type of rare heart attack I had and rare diseases I have is very low.  Like super low sometimes so we will just chalk it up to “Kat needs to find better ways to stay awake”.

So…today I began my water quest.  On a future update I’m hoping I will be keeping to this exercise of so much water and I’m so getting steps in when with clients because I’m running to the restroom quite often.

Oh the newness of this weight loss journey and living with PCOS after 40 and two rare artery diseases.  I’m going to make this fun.

img_4737 (water is flavored so I continue to drink said water)

OMG She’s on a roll…

Time to hold myself accountable on this quest to lose my heart attack weight while living with my friend who keeps on giving PCOS.  I’ve been good since my last post about no gluten.  However; that night I epic failed because ordering late caused me to eat gluten so I added no food after 8pm because my good thinking disappears.  So since the morning after my last post I’ve been 100% gluten free.

I’ve found that eating no gluten is helping me get back into being good to me food wise.  I’ve found snacks I used to enjoy, I’ve saved money having to eat at home more and I’m feeling less bloated.  Imagine, just eating the way suggested to me is helping me to physically feel better.

As I continue my quest to lose my heart attack weight while battling PCOS I will start to again post recipes and ways I’m good to me.  I’m grateful that I found my purpose with this blog which is what it started as years ago.  I miss my old blog but with life events it is gone but I’m so grateful I can start over.  We can always start over.