Archive | May, 2012

Is it cheating?????

31 May

I would have to say NO!

I’ve found that if I have a great day during this “Weight Loss Challenge” that I’ve earned the right to ONE Otter Pop and TWO pieces of Hershey’s Dark Chocolate kisses.  No more and no less.  Just that.

I keep losing weight now and the way I should.  I’m not obsessive over my weight….for the most part and I’m on the right track.  My Goal is to win this competition but the reality is I will be happy in the top 10!

What do you do if anything to give yourself a small reward when losing weight? For me losing Liam (weight gained from his entrance into the world) has been hard in part of my dear friend PCOS but I don’t want to deprive myself either so I found those little things a good reward when I eat right, drink all my water, and exercise…if even walking to the store instead of driving.

Sometimes it’s the little things that make weight loss so much easier to do.

My Super Yummy Treats!!

Patience is a Virtue….Especially with Weight Loss

29 May

I’ve not blogged on the Weight Loss Challenge or as I normally would because I’ve tried to not think too much about this Weight Loss Challenge.  I got very hard on myself, in tears over some weight gain that was probably muscle seeing I was fitting in clothes I couldn’t previously have worn.

I have a very hard time with my weight because of HOW overweight I was.  Yes, it was because of a disease but did society care?  No, I heard comments about my weight, felt uncomfortable in certain situations, cried when trying clothes on, etc.  I felt so alone in how I felt.  Now I feel it again because some don’t see why I’m so scared of being so overweight again, a disease caused the weight gain, a disease I still have.  I need to lose 14 more lbs. to get to Pre-Liam weight.  I can do it but I have to remember that 14 lbs. total is much harder to lose than say 100 lbs.   When I was 100 lbs. overweight I was able to lose weight quickly because I had so much to lose.  I have to remember that it’s those last lbs. that are the hardest to lose and to not beat myself up.

My husband worries I will end up with a eating disorder which in some ways others have worried.  Going from thin to 100 lbs. overweight to thin again makes me SO SCARED to ever gain weight.  My pregnancy was so hard.  I couldn’t face the scale when they weighed me.  In my head I kept seeing the moi 100 lbs. overweight or becoming her again.  I never want to be her again.  I remember how mean and judgmental people are to overweight people.  I think society is kinder to ex-drug addicts.  It seems people in recovery get forgiven and overweight people are judged for eating too much which IS NOT the case for all overweight people.

I’m happy to report that I’ve found really eating more protein, exercise, not eating after dinner, lots and I mean lots of water is what is helping me lose the last of the Liam weight.  I will still have the extra skin but there is nothing I can do about that.  I’ve tried, even with a personal trainer kicking my butt.  I don’t have 42k for the full body lift so that is out.  I have to become more comfortable with me.  The last two weeks has started me getting there and I hope to continue on this path and #iwillrockthis

OH yeah and I lost 1.2 lbs. last week.  It’s still coming off but slowly and that’s how it should be.

Must Remember Daily…

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Bad Moi & Bad Diet Coke

19 May

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I had a 1/2 a can of Diet Coke at dinner yesterday and then I had restless leg syndrome BAD. Aspartame and me aren’t friends and I’ve so learned that lesson. Yet like so many I did test the waters and so glad it was a epic fail.

#dietcoke #aspartame #restlesslegs #bad

Facts About Tweenagers

18 May

It’s time I just put it out there. I have a Tweenager, a lovely 11 year old Tweenager. I’ve noticed some things and probably things my mother noticed when I was 11 as well. It’s time I just share that:

1. My daughter has and many other Tweens have no sense of dressing right. For example my lovely daughter thought her shorts with a VERY wrinkled top was a great idea to wear to school today.

I asked her if I could get the wrinkles out. She declined my offer. She assured me that the wrinkles would be gone by the time she arrived to school. She was wrong. Still I think I plead my case about the clothes for about 10 minutes and then it hit me….my ego was at stake. I didn’t want people to think I dressed my daughter that way. I then realized my own mother must have had those same thoughts. Boy did I have some fashion issues.

To sum up point 1 I have to let her find her own fashion self and I can point out her train wreck days kindly but if she doesn’t want my assistance I will back off to the best of my ability.

2. The tone of voice of a Tweenager is very loud. They do not know they are talking extremely loud or answering questions like “How are you?” with such attitude that you would think you asked “Why didn’t you clean your room yet?”. It’s as though they’ve found their inner voice (just as toddlers yell when they find their voice) but it’s at some awful loud volume.

To this I remember my attitude and I’d like to say I didn’t have one BUT I think if I question my parents they may say otherwise.

3. Appearance. Enough said. Wash your face and take a real shower, you know where your body is washed and you properly wash your hair. This means using the products so freely given to you by your loving parents and make sure you use deodorant before leaving for school. I’d like to be able to breathe when I pick up said child from school.

Now I’d like to point out this is not my daughter I speak of in the deodorant department. I don’t feel it necessary to call out a child while in my car but it’s so hard to breathe. This has happened at different times with different Tweens but it an be bad.

I do believe and hope this one fixes itself over time. I think and hope their close friends would let them know of their stench, right?

So as I enjoy the Tweenage years some more I’m sure there will be more that comes up but I thought sharing these little bits of joy would show I’m not alone and that there are many more parents living with a Tweenager and that we will all survive with or without lots of thoughts of running away.

Below is moi with bright red hair. My mother was never pleased with this choice of color.

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I Swore I wouldn’t become….

15 May

Crazy Kat but she’s arrived for the moment and will depart shortly.

I’m trying my  HARDEST to understand that my body is not like everyone else’s.  This being said…

I hate that I have extra skin, that I had a baby (who I LOVE) after finding out I had 1o lbs. of extra skin, that I hate the fact I can’t wear normal shorts, that I hate my arms because of the extra skin, and that I hate how my body looks for the most part.

I weighed in today.  I gained 2 oz. more than when I started this challenge.  The kicker I’M NOT EATING CRAP and exercising daily!  I had some candy over the weekend but not much because I get sick from sugar so my version and your version may be different on a little candy.  For the most part no starches.  I had some potato/sweet potato over the weekend too for mothers day but not much (hello I get full super fast!)

I was part of a study on women with PCOS and they said the foods for women with PCOS to avoid are Potato, Pasta, Bread.  What they call the poor mans food.  Back in the day these foods were eaten a lot because of poverty and the low cost of them but that women with PCOS can’t process those types of food.

I really do feel deprived sometimes when I work so hard and have a “Not for me” food for Mother’s Day and gain weight.  That’s how I explain my weight gain when it happens to people.  I say “I’ve eaten 1 slice of bread & you’ve eaten a loaf but to my body we just ate the same thing” I’m so angry at PCOS today.  I’m not giving up and not quitting but I cried today.  I just have to remember my body is different.

Week 2 ~ Day 3 PAIN

11 May

Pain, that’s what I am in this evening. I’ve downloaded three exercise apps: Easy Abs, Arms, and Legs. Let’s just say when you’re not in shape then EASY they are not.

I’m not stopping though seeing I want to get into shape and look great in work out clothes. A bikini will never be in my future but I’d love to feel comfortable in Yoga pants. I’d also love to feel comfortable in ballet attire again.

I’m hoping the pain is gone soon. I know the pain will pass but right now I feel old sitting down or getting up. At least I’m not quitting.

Until tomorrow.

Week 2 ~ No Comfort Food Here…But…

10 May

Today was the day that my loving son was taken over by some evil force that was determined to drive me insane.

I love my son, he’s adorable and funny and really AWESOME but today he was destined to make me cry out of frustration, and I did.

I didn’t however eat any kind of comfort food.  I did however have a extra Skinny Iced Cinnamon Dolce Latte today and enjoyed some great classical music while I had the monster pass out in the back seat and get some sleep.

I then had a mini melt down and still no comfort food.

By nights end I had a lovely dinner, went grocery shopping with my Tween Princess, and played some Apples to Apples with the hubby & Tween.  Today was rough and the day ended nice and I hope tomorrow to be much better.

Oh and on a exercise note I did not run today but I downloaded Easy Legs & Easy Arms and completed both those programs along with Easy Abs.  The title of these exercise apps is misleading.  They should really be called “You will be sore tomorrow Abs, Legs, and Arms”.

Until tomorrow…..

 

Week 2 ~ Weigh In & Racing Mind

9 May

I finished Week One of the “Weight Loss Challenge” without gaining any weight and actually losing 1.2 lbs. as seen in the photo below.  I also decided to take a week by week photo of myself to see if I notice progress.  I notice that skirt hasn’t been worn since I went and saw Wicked last year in Orange County.  Welcome back skirt.

I was kinda bummed to find I was in 22nd place out of 33 women but my husband (Yeah E-Rock) noted if I had lost as much as some women did that week I’d be in a eating disorder place, fast.

Realistically I need to lose another 16 lbs.

I have 10 lbs. of extra skin on me from losing over 100 lbs. (thanks PCOS) and at 150 before having Liam people thought I was too skinny at times because my upper body is small and I hide my weight well.

So, I know the challenge is being done by % of weight lost so over time I know I can move up.  I really want a new Marc Jacobs bag and outfit from Anthropologie (wants keep changing) but if anything I want to be better to my unhealthy body which is why I started this challenge.  So over the past week and up to Day 1 of Week Two I learned the following 10 Things:

  1. I remember daily this is about being good to me and eating right to help heal my body.
  2. I didn’t count 1 calorie last week and lost 1.2 lbs.
  3. I’m not running a race any time soon so exercise is just for me it’s not a competition.
  4. I might be addicted to ice.
  5. You can lose weight eating 1 tootsie pop a day.
  6. Ab work gets easier if you keep doing it.
  7. Sharing my weight with the world is a bit freeing.
  8. My husband is worried I may try to lose too much weight and for my health that isn’t good so I’m out to prove him wrong but I saw again this past week how much he loves me.
  9. You can live without rice or starches at dinner.  Lots of veggies go great with dinner and you can season them to be really YUMMY!
  10. Don’t take myself so seriously.  I’m not perfect and doing the best I can with this challenge and any weight loss, is weight loss.

So there ya have it.  I should have posted this last night but I got home and ready for bed and in bed at 11PM so no time to.

Tonight I will write more on this daring adventure of “The Weight Loss Challenge” and not going crazy!

Week 2 Day 1 Starting Weight (down by 1.2 lbs.) and Body Shot plus a little motivation.

Day 7 ~ Week 1 Down

8 May

I’ve completed Week 1 of The Weight Loss challenge. Top 10 things from this week:

1. I need to eat more. I don’t think I’m losing weight because I’m not eating enough. With the Gastric Bypass and eating less I know I’m not eating enough and filling up on ice and ice water all the time.

2. Money is a huge motivator.

3. It’s a breeze to do crunches now.

4. Walking six miles in flip flops is not a good idea, ever.

5. I had pizza tonight. Gluten Free and mostly just the cheese & toppings. It was a individual pizza and I had yummy salad with oil/vinegar dressing. Didn’t finish it all but it was yummy & Dominos starts selling Gluten Free next week.

6. Ice is my craving

7. It’s nice to connect with the other women doing this challenge.

8. I’m not crazy diet Kat yet.

9. I’m actually afraid of my weigh in tomorrow.

10. Looking forward to Week Two!!

So that’s it. I’m exhausted and ready for bed. Stay tuned for tomorrows weigh in where I share my weight with anyone who visits my blog.

Day Six ~ MoiMeMoi

7 May

Yes, today’s post will be all about me and what I want when and if I win this challenge.  Which I’ve found out the cash prize is worth more than $600.00.  So with this new found knowledge and some time roaming around The Grove today I’ve decided I’d buy….

Clothing from Anthropologie because I will need new clothing for sure and…

Marc Jacobs bags are so nice plus….

Jo Malone has very yummy smelling perfume and a new scent I fell in love with to replace what I usually get BUT I smelt the Michael Kors signature scent and it is so Gardenia that I love that too….

Flip flops are my friend and there are so many I could get and….

The Splendid boutique kept calling me.

My point to this post is I’ve been on a strict budget since we got the home and the hubby got a pay cut so I’ve not been shopping like I used to.  I miss my overpriced comfortable clothing and accessories.  If I win this challenge I can treat myself and enjoy all the hard work I put into the challenge.

I’m starving right now.  Well not really starving but I’d love some dark chocolate so I will have one little square of the Godiva Dark Chocolate bar my daughter got me today.  One square equals 52.5 calories and so worth it.  I’ve just helped my heart and also by having one square I gave in to a sweet urge and didn’t over do it on the sweets.  Score!

$248 for this dress. Great Motivation to win this challenge!

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